It happened again and yes, tequila was involved and we were out in our work group including the old boyfriend. The night had been filled with back and forth smiles and him occasionally putting his hand on my back and letting it linger. I’m not sure if anyone saw but I felt a constant pull to him. I don’t know if I leaned back into his hand, but I should’ve.
At one point him and my old BF were standing side by side, MG is taller. When I realized this I couldn’t help but smile. MG glowed in comparison and I saw gold coins click above his head.
The old BF reminds me of Marty McFly fading away in Back to the Future 2. And I’m really okay with that. It’s amazing to look at someone and not care what they say or do when sometime ago that same person made or broke every moment of my day. Who da thought?
So the night went on and more beer was had and then it was just the two of us sitting on bar stools and leaning towards each other. It again, felt like a fuzzy combo of a date and a drinking buddy.
At one point he said ‘So tell me everything about you.’
I said ‘I don’t like coconut.’
I’m a charmer, what can I say? I’m not ready to open up to him. I want to and there’s so much I could tell him and Iet him actually be there and be whatever he’s going to be.
But a couple of things- he doesn’t contact me outside of work and he hasn’t asked me out one on one. We haven’t talked about the make out on Cinco de Mayo.
I wanted to bring it up the other night but the words never left my mouth. The night ended with him walking me home and yes... we did walk one block in the wrong direction due to the fuzziness from tequila, but we made it. In front of my apartment we kissed a few times but not made out. It was different this time...it felt more polite then anything else.
What I want next- one on one time with less drinking.
What will happen- more smiles across the office and me waiting for him to make a move, hoping we don’t get stuck in the friends zone. Perhaps I need lower cut shirts?