So I'm leaving on a ten-day trip to Israel on Sunday morning. And it's a trip I've been trying to go on for almost two years. And I couldn't have planned going at a better time. Work has been painfully slow recently and it's making me anxious career wise. When I get bored at work, my dreams of teaching abroad and living in different cities hit me full force. I think about the intense career belt I'm on and think that I still have time to get off the track and then go back on. You know, do those 'can only do when you're young and not committed to anything' things. But then I think about my bf. And we'll be dating a year in March. A YEAR! And I feel like 2010 is going to be a big, crazy, full of change kind of year. I feel like 2010 is the year of doing. Any one else get that vibe?
Well he's been working more and more recently and I've been getting down about it and it's just a great time to get away and indulge in my passion for traveling. I'll meet a ton of new people and get to journal all the time! It's like I've been so busy and caught up in the 'we' part of my life that I've almost started to forget about what 'me' wants to do. And I really think, before I invest in too much of this relationship, before we even have a future talk (coming soon...) it's necessary for me to figure out what I want to do in this New Year. And then we can figure out how it'll all work out.
And I'm not talking about time apart because I know (if you haven't figured it out) I just want to be with him, I'm talking about indulging in my passions again and learning more about me- which should never really stop. I can't fully be part of a 'we' until I experience the constant, always growing me. It's science.
